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Chapter 7 - Ocean Breezes and Honest Reflections

The cliffs of Cabo da Roca rose five hundred feet above the Atlantic Ocean, raw and ancient, pounded by the turquoise surf of the Portuguese coast.

A cold, clean wind blew off the water, snapping the hem of my windbreaker against my legs. Beside me, Joyce held onto her sun hat with both hands, squinting out toward the horizon where the blue of the sea met the paler blue of the sky.

“Charles was right,” I said, resting my hands on the rough wooden safety railing.

“About what?” Joyce asked over the roar of the waves below.

“About this place,” I said. “He used to read books about the Portuguese explorers when he was in the navy. He told me that when you stand on this cliff, you’re standing at the edge of the known world. Everything behind you is Europe, and everything in front of you is just... possibility.”

Joyce smiled, her weathered face crinkling at the corners. “He was a romantic, your Charles. A little stubborn about changing the oil in the car, but a romantic at heart.”

“He would have loved this wind,” I said.

For three days, the guilt that had followed me out of my driveway had been slowly stripped away by the sheer, unhurried beauty of this country. We had eaten fresh sardines grilled over charcoal in Alfama. We had walked through the mossy, fairytale gardens of Sintra, looking up at the yellow and red towers of the Pena Palace. We had sat in small cafes where no one looked at a watch, drinking tiny cups of espresso that tasted like melted chocolate.

I hadn't checked my phone since Friday morning. It remained locked in the safe at the hotel in Lisbon, cold and silent.

“Myrna,” Joyce said, nudging my arm. “Look at me.”

I turned.

“Do you regret it?” she asked. “Coming here?”

I looked back out at the vast, endless blue of the ocean.

“No,” I said, and to my surprise, my voice was steady and clear. “For five years, Joyce, I thought being a good mother meant being invisible. I thought if I had no needs, no schedule, and no boundaries, Caleb would love me more because I was easy to keep. But all I did was teach my son that my life had no value once his father was gone.”

Joyce nodded slowly. “Children are like water, Myrna. They take the shape of whatever container you give them. If you make yourself a doormat, they’ll wipe their boots on you and wonder why your back hurts.”

“I’m calling Patrice tonight,” I said.

Joyce raised an eyebrow. “Are you ready for that?”

“I’m ready,” I said. “Not to ask for permission. Just to check on the children.”

That evening, after a dinner of salt cod and roasted potatoes at a small taverna near the Rossio square, I went up to the hotel room, opened the safe, and retrieved my phone.

I sat on the edge of the bed, took a long, steadying breath, and dialed Patrice’s home number.

It rang three times before the familiar, brisk voice answered:

*“Miller residence.”*

“Patrice,” I said. “It’s Myrna.”

There was a two-second silence on the other end of the line. Then Patrice let out a soft, dry chuckle.

*“Well, well. The fugitive calls from Europe. Did you find your castles?”*

“They were yellow and red,” I said, smiling despite the lump in my throat. “And the wind at Cabo da Roca nearly took my glasses off.”

*“Good,”* Patrice said, her voice softening into something genuine. *“Charles would have been pleased. Now tell me: are you drinking enough water? You always forget to drink water when you travel.”*

“I’m drinking plenty of water, Patrice,” I said. “How are the children? Tell me the truth. If it’s too much, I can change my ticket—”

*“Do not insult my competence, Myrna Higgins,”* Patrice interrupted, though there was no malice in her tone. *“Maggie learned how to tie her shoes yesterday without throwing a tantrum. Finn ate two helpings of green beans because I told him they were giant dragon scales. Chloe has read three chapters of Charlotte’s Web to her sister, and Eli...”*

Patrice paused.

“What about Eli?” I asked, my heart tightening immediately.

*“Eli is a good boy who has been carrying fifty pounds of adult anxiety in a fourteen-year-old backpack,”* Patrice said quietly. *“We had a long talk on Sunday night. He told me about the school tuition, Myrna.”*

The room in Lisbon seemed to go suddenly quiet.

“What tuition?” I asked.

Patrice sighed—a long, heavy sound that traveled four thousand miles across copper and fiber-optic cables.

*“Tori hasn't paid their private school tuition since January. They owe thirty-two thousand dollars. And my daughter had every intention of using you as her emergency credit card the moment she got back from Tokyo.”*

I sat frozen on the white duvet, the gold-leaf trim of the Portuguese headboard gleaming behind me.

“Charles’s insurance,” I whispered.

*“Exactly,”* Patrice said. *“She left the notes in that red folder she shoved into your hands. She thought you’d be so grateful to have the kids back after two weeks that you’d write a check just to keep the peace.”*

A cold, clear wave of grief washed over me—not for the money, but for the son who had stood in my hallway on Thursday morning, looked at his shoes, and hugged me while knowing what his wife intended to take.

“Did Caleb know?” I asked, my voice barely audible.

*“Caleb knows now,”* Patrice said grimly. *“He called me from the Tokyo airport four hours ago. He was alone at the boarding gate. He bought two tickets on the morning flight to Newark. He’s bringing her home, Myrna. Not next week. Tomorrow.”*

I closed my eyes, letting the reality settle into my bones.

“What do we do, Patrice?”

*“We do nothing,”* Patrice answered firmly. *“You stay in Portugal until your scheduled return on Sunday. You eat your pastries. You look at your churches. And when you get off that plane at Newark, we will be waiting. Together.”*

“Together?” I echoed.

*“Together,”* Patrice said. *“It’s high time the Higgins and Miller mothers had a united policy. Have a good night, Myrna. I’ll see you on Sunday.”*

The line went quiet.

I held the phone in my lap for a long time, looking out the French doors at the twinkling lights climbing the hills of Lisbon.

For the first time in five years, I didn't feel like a widow left behind by the world.

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I felt like a woman standing on the edge of something new.

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