Chapter 6 - Blood and Water

The cramped two-bedroom off-campus apartment smelled like despair and stale Chinese takeout.
Shay sat cross-legged on the threadbare carpet of the living room, surrounded by half-filled cardboard boxes, textbook returns, and a mountain of unpaid bills.
Her phone lay on the floor before her on speakerphone. Across the country, three thousand miles away in an apartment in San Diego, the voice of her biological mother, Brenda, crackled through the tiny speaker over the background noise of crashing surf and a barking dog.
*"...so wait, let me get this straight,"* Brenda drawled, her voice raspy from decades of cheap cigarettes and sunshine. *"She actually cut you off? Completely? Like, no car, no rent, no tuition?"*
"Yes!" Shay sobbed, clutching her knees to her chest. "Mom, it’s a nightmare! She kicked Dad out of the house, too! Dad is sleeping on my futon right now! The bursar's office says if I don't have eighty-four hundred dollars by tomorrow afternoon, I'm administratively dropped! You have to help me, Mom. Please. You're my actual mother!"
A heavy, uncomfortable pause stretched across the three-thousand-mile fiber-optic line.
In the small kitchen behind Shay, Darcy sat at the laminate table, his head buried in his hands, listening to every word. He hadn't spoken to his ex-wife in over twelve years—not since the day Brenda signed away primary custody in a dingy county courthouse and hopped into the convertible of a commercial real estate broker headed for the Pacific Coast Highway.
*"Look, baby,"* Brenda sighed, the sound of an ice-filled cocktail glass clinking against the receiver. *"You know I love you. You know you're my baby girl. But eighty-four hundred dollars? Where on earth do you think I have that kind of cash lying around?"*
Shay's breath hitched. "Mom, you live in California! Your Instagram shows you going to resorts in Cabo and eating at sushi bars in La Jolla every weekend!"
*"That's my boyfriend Gary's money, sweetie,"* Brenda snapped, her tone hardening instantly. *"Gary pays for our condo and Gary pays for our vacations. Gary didn't sign up to pay off the college debts of a kid he's met three times in nine years. If I asked Gary for eight grand to send to my ex-husband's kid, he'd pack my bags and put me on the street by dinner time."*
"Mom, please!" Shay begged, the tears flowing freely now, hot and humiliating. "I don't have anywhere else to turn! Eleanor hates me! Dad doesn't have any money—his credit is ruined! You're my mom! You're supposed to protect me!"
*"Where was all this 'you're my mom' energy three years ago when I asked you to fly out here for Christmas?"* Brenda fired back, the veneer of maternal warmth peeling away completely. *"You blew me off because Darcy's new rich wife was taking you to Aspen to go skiing! You didn't give a damn about your 'actual mother' when Eleanor was buying you designer bags and leasing you brand-new cars, did you?"*
Shay froze. The words hit her like a physical blow to the solar plexus.
*"You made your bed, Shay,"* Brenda said coldly. *"You had a goose that laid golden eggs, and you were stupid enough to kick it in the teeth. You want my advice? Swallow your little pride, drive over to that big fancy house, get down on your knees, and crawl. Tell that woman you're sorry. Cry a little. Tell her she's the best thing that ever happened to your father. Because out here in the real world? Nobody gives a damn about a pretty girl who doesn't have any skills and can't pay her bills."*
*Click.*
The line went dead.
Shay stared at the black screen of her phone. The dial tone buzzed like a hornet inside her skull.
"Mom?" she whispered. "Mom?"
From the kitchen, Darcy didn't look up. He just sat there, staring at the scarred linoleum floor, a broken, hollow shell of a man.
"She hung up on me," Shay whimpered, turning toward him, her eyes wild with betrayal. "Dad... she hung up on me. She doesn't care. She doesn't care about me at all."
"I told you," Darcy whispered, his voice cracking into a dry, gravelly rasp. "I told you twelve years ago, Shay. Brenda only cares about Brenda."
"Then what are we going to do?" Shay shrieked, scrambling to her feet, her hands clawing at her own hair. "Tomorrow is Friday! Friday, Dad! The bursar closes at five! If I don't pay the tuition, I'm out! And the landlord sent an email this afternoon saying our lease terminates in eighty-two days! Where are we going to live? How are we going to eat?"
Darcy slowly raised his head. His eyes were bloodshot, surrounded by dark, bruised circles of pure exhaustion. A desperate, dangerous gleam was burning in the back of his pupils.
"There is one way," Darcy murmured.
Shay stopped pacing. "What? What way?"
Darcy reached into his breast pocket and pulled out a worn, blue-and-white checkbook.
It was the checkbook for the medical clinic’s petty operational account—the secondary account used to buy office supplies, pay the weekly cleaning crew, and purchase emergency medical consumables. As the office administrator, Darcy had sole signatory authority for checks under ten thousand dollars, subject to an internal audit by the clinic's managing partner at the end of every fiscal month.
"Dad..." Shay whispered, her eyes dropping to the checkbook. "What is that?"
"It's a temporary loan," Darcy breathed, his hands shaking violently as he smoothed the blue paper flat against the table. "Just temporary. Just to get the bursar off our backs. I'll write the clinic check for eighty-four hundred to the university. It will clear their system by tomorrow afternoon. Your hold will be lifted. You'll stay enrolled."
"Can you do that?" Shay asked, her voice trembling between terror and desperate, ravenous hope. "Won't they find out?"
"The monthly reconciliation isn't until the thirty-first," Darcy said, pulling a pen from his pocket. "That gives me fifteen days. Fifteen days to secure an outside personal loan from a private lender downtown, or find an investor, or... or convince Eleanor to settle the divorce out of court with an immediate cash advance."
He looked at Shay, his face drenched in cold, greasy sweat.
"Do you want to stay in school or not, Shay?"
Shay looked at the checkbook.
She remembered the way the girls in her sorority had looked at her this morning when she walked onto campus with wet sneakers and no car. She remembered the smirks. She remembered the humiliation of being turned away at Starbucks. She couldn't bear the thought of packing her bags and moving into some filthy, roach-infested studio apartment with her broke, disgraced father while her friends graduated and took corporate jobs in Chicago and New York.
"Write it," she whispered.
Darcy clicked the pen.
With shaking fingers, he made the check payable to *State University Bursar Office* in the amount of *$8,400.00*. He scrawled his name on the signature line, tore the check from the binding, and handed it to his daughter.
"Take it directly to the cashier's window at eight AM," Darcy instructed, his voice barely above a graveyard whisper. "Don't say a word. Just give them the check, get the receipt, and make sure the hold is cleared."
Shay clutched the piece of paper against her chest as if it were a life preserver in a storm.
Neither of them realized that the check wasn't a life preserver at all.
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It was an anchor. And it was about to drag them both straight to the bottom of the sea.
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